The Girl With The Sun In Her Head

Last night we went over to our friends place Adam & CJ's, to smoke a few joints & play xbox (will watch actually). We got some unexpected, shocking news! Well I found out after we left, but Vince was in the other room with Adam & he told him that CJ was pregnant! I guess CJ walked in the room afterwards & Vince was like, no way, how far along? Adam said due in about a month! Vince totally didn't believe him, but CJ took the pillow away from her belly & there it was! Holy fuck! She hid that well... I guess they didn't want Otto (fucked up crackhead) to find out. They said Vince could tell me though. They just told their families just about a week ago! That's crazy! She must need someone to talk to. I'll try & talk Vince into going over again tonight. No wonder she hasn't smoked weed for a while... Now that I think about it, she does always have a pillow on her lap, but I didn't think anything about it. It's just comfy to sit that way.

Not like we are super close friends or anything, but I still feel for her. I wonder if they are keeping it? She is trying to go to university... Well they must have decided to if they just told their families about it. She must be so scared to hide it all that time. I know if I was preg I would be yelling from the rooftops! That's just me though. Well maybe I can help her out a bit since we live so close. That is if they don't move. I know she was talking about moving to a new apt, but I didn't know at the time what for. I kinda feel like a fool for not noticing...

I want to get her something. She had absolutely nothing so far. Unless they secretly have a stash of baby clothes at their parents place (which I doubt). I should go though, I'm being super lazy today & need to get some stuff done. Like the budget ;)

Posted by Sarah @ 2:41 PM |

Today is the 2 year anniversary of my friends suicide. I still haven't gotten over it, but do you ever really get over something like that? Travis was my first real bf. We had so many good times up the his parents garage smoking & drinking with Taylor, Levon, Adam, Tara, Tamara, Melanie & Katie. Well they are the ones that introduced me to techno. They made me who I am today ;) I was 14 at the time & he was 17, the relationship lasted about a year. I always hung out with older people. Guys my own age were still playing G.I. Joes. One of the best years of my life though. I went to soo many parties! Man... Good times. I still can't believe he's gone. I don't think I'll ever delete him from my ICQ list. Sounds silly, but it's hard. I might write more about it later, but I gotta go to sleep.

Posted by Sarah @ 8:49 AM |

This weekend, Gary was supposed to come over. He wasn't here by 8pm, so Vince called him & he said he had no money so maybe next weekend. Thanks for the phone call buddy. Some people don't think. We had the house clean & bought muchies & mix too. We haven't seen him in over a year so we were kinda looking forward to it ya know?

On Saturday, Laura (my best friend since we were born), Tricia (someone I met on the net, but Laura knows) and Shane (Tricia's bf), were supposed to all get together & drink & smoke. We were like, sweet! The house is already clean, come on over guys! Later that night, Laura called & said that they wanted us to go over there, that was cool, but we had to finish dinner. I called Laura after dinner & she said that Shane didn't wanna do anything anymore. That was kinda weird. It kinda pissed Laura off too cause she had planned the whole thing for all of us to get together. Laura ended up coming over though so that was cool. We haven't hung out for a while either. Me & Vince drank & smoked, but she didn't, she usually doesn't, but she still knows how to have a good time. It was fun catching up :)

Today I went to a baby shower for my cousin Becky. She is due next month! I haven't seen her in forever before that. It was nice seeing her again. She has that pregnant glow :) I went with Mom, Sam, Brandi, Aunt Patti & Nana Weir. I won a spatula! *whoo hoo* cause I guess I had an x on my cup that I didn't know about or something. It was fun though. Although it was in a church. I don't go in churches if I don't have to. It's like against my religion or something. It was in the basement, so that's ok, I guess. There was a TON of people there! Meagan (Becky's sister) said that she knew only about 10 of them! lol I forgot to ask Becky how many she knew. Alot were Ryan's mom's friends I presume. There was literally a mountian of gifts! It took soooo long for her to open them all! By the end of it, I imagine that she was pretty tired. My favorite thing was a tigger jolly jumper! I used to love mine! Then when Sam was in it I would push her like a swing :) My kid is diffanately getting one! I don't fucking care if I'm in an apt! It was fun though, good to see Beck again :)

I'm at my parents place right now & I love it here. I just wish Vinny could have come up. On the way to the baby shower me & mom were in one car & Sam & Branders were in the other, so we had a good talk about work & the wedding & what's going on lately with Bran Muffin. It was nice :) After we got home, I had a nice talk to dad about work & how I should leave my dead end job. We talked for a while about making webpages too. It was cool, cause it's been a long time since I hung out with dad by the workbench :)

Then later watching the Sopranos season opener (which was fucking awesome!!!), me & Sam talked alot just about stuff that's been going on. It was just us & that doesn't happen very often. She was telling me about this girl that was in grade 8 & she was in grade 12, but this kid had a huge mouth on her (she was pretty big for her age too, bigger than Sam). Sam gave her many chances to shut the fuck up, but one day she called Sam cyclops... That was the last straw. Sam threw her up against the wall & told her to shut the fuck up. She didn't listen so Sam threw her in the air down the steps (don't worry, there was only 3 there). The kid ran away & apoligized later. I'm glad Sam stood up for herself cause she takes alot of shit. Well she was born with no muscle in one of her eyes. She had surgery to put a sling in it, but you can still see it if you look. Myself I don't notice it, I think Samantha is a beautiful girl. She is really self conscious about it though. It sure pisses me off when people make fun of her. I just get this rage! It's fucked. It's like don't mess with my sister you close-minded little fuck!

Holy fuck this is long! I should go to bed. Vinny is offline, I'm got my ambiant channel on & feelin the groove :P

Posted by Sarah @ 2:33 AM |